Friday, September 14, 2012

We Made It...

In addition to having days full of nursings, diapers, and learning to divide my time five ways keeping me away from the blog, other things were as well.

This week was the one year anniversary of us realizing that Annalise was not going to be joining our family. 

I wanted to hide under the covers and sob.

But we made it.  I had asked for prayers from some amazing prayer warrior friends of ours and they literally held us together with their prayers. 

I know God has a plan.  I know He intended our path to cross with hers.  I know He knew from the beginning of time that she was not coming home to us. 

I still just wish *I* knew why.  Maybe I'll know while I'm on earth but maybe I won't know until I get to Heaven.

So we just keep swimming. 



Our Adoption Journey to Eastern Europe said...

Praying for your heart, your family and precious Annalise!

I know it is not the same as what you experienced but the similarity comes in that our plans were not God's plans and it was heartbreaking to accept and to wonder why it could not have worked out.

God put a little girl on our hearts...we were so sure she was ours. We tried to commit to adopt her as well but missed by just hours as another family stepped forward for her. We were blessed to be able to meet this little girl in person when we went to BG to meet our son. We were able to spend the week playing with her, take pictures and vidoes to share with her family, to tell her she was loved and has a family coming for her soon. I do not know if that was all God had in mind for our family and this little girl but I will never forget her. I'll always wonder how she is doing and will continue praying for her.

Yes, keep swimming...God is is holding you up!

Danielle said...

Thinking of you and praying for you. And um, wanting some more pictures of that sweet baby. I hope Xander's belly issues heal up, I still think of him too.