In addition to having days full of nursings, diapers, and learning to divide my time five ways keeping me away from the blog, other things were as well.
This week was the one year anniversary of us realizing that Annalise was not going to be joining our family.
I wanted to hide under the covers and sob.
But we made it. I had asked for prayers from some amazing prayer warrior friends of ours and they literally held us together with their prayers.
I know God has a plan. I know He intended our path to cross with hers. I know He knew from the beginning of time that she was not coming home to us.
I still just wish *I* knew why. Maybe I'll know while I'm on earth but maybe I won't know until I get to Heaven.
So we just keep swimming.