The last time I spoke to the adoption lawyer she told me that another family was in the process of meeting the requirement to adopt the little boy we inquired about.
She said that she would know within 2 days if it was going to work out for them and if it fell through she would call us.
And the phone hasn't rang.
So we have no news.
Honestly, we are thrilled for the little boy.
But we are sad.
Thanksgiving 2011 will look much different than we had planned. This Thanksgiving is Annalise's first Thanksgiving and we looked forward to celebrating with her. But we won't be able to.
We are trying our best to temper the sadness by reminding ourselves that we have much to be thankful for. I have four great children, an amazing husband, a warm cozy home. My husband is gainfully employed. We have the freedom to worship our amazing God. But in the quiet moments a lump rises in my throat as I walk past our empty baby swing, or our unused changing table.. and I realize that there is an empty spot in our family and in our hearts.
Some days the tears stream down my face freely.. other days I seem okay.
But we will make it through this too. Even in the sadness we are learning so much.